yet another one

before one even recovered fully, another one came. within half a year, my heart broke to hear both news. it hurts me to hear the news. mum couldnt understand how i really felt and only to blame me for everything.

is not i dun wanna go over. is i dun wish to go over cause i dun wan to have teary eyes infront of them. yes, jiejie would say the ostrich me is back again. sweetest mummy say i dunno how to express myself. i think so too.

but i really wanna do something before i really regret for not doing anything.

i wanna have a hug that tells me that everything will be fine.

i dunno how to be strong enough to accept this fact.