both of them is not as important as friends?

i need a shoulder.

can someone tell me if im really an unfilial kid? i really dunno.

just a simple wish from her and yet i cannot fulfil? wat are my priority? i really dunno. i dun wan to go but thats her one simple wish for me.

she said: both of us is not as important as your friends.

i have never think that way! i just dun wanna go. i really dun wan. i dun wan to go. i dun wan! am i really such a kid in their eyes?

i wish i could sleep and never wake up.

nobody recognize the days when im always there. they onli recognize the days when im not there. im tired already. i cannot stay strong anymore.