It has been a long while since i last posted. Popped by around to update the wishes and memories.
2017 hasn't been much a great year. ah gong has been fighting his battle since last year. grandma was down too last year but she's better. whereas for grandpa, he fought his battle strongly but sadly, he lost this battle and left us on 19may. the last days before he left was pretty much painful to see and remember.
18may, he had a request and it was to visit his workplace and they allowed it. he was so happy there. getting him ready for the visit was painful to see. seeing a man who was all fitted and strong. who walked the stairs home everyday could not get himself out from the room to living room. that few seconds thing have became a few mins thing. requiring 2-4 pple inside helping him out. that few mins that he was away from the oxygen machine got him breathless. like very breathless. all of us kept our tears in. that night was the hardest because he struggled with heat in the room. the next day,
19may, mum woke me up in a calm but yet panic tone. she asked me to come over. i was about to start on my brunch and the hospice team came. they asked if all the family members are here because he is going. talk to him and he still can hear all of you. all of us broke down in tears and started talking and gathering everyone. and upon the arrival of everybody and hearing from all of us, he grasps for his breathe slowly and soon he took his last breathe and he left.
he left when i wasn't watching. holding onto his cold hands, i sat down beside him to accompany. the funeral team came and pick him up so to doll him and make him all handsome again. the wrapping him up and bringing him away broke us all down again. my first goodbye that i will not meet again. maybe we'll meet again and the other side but that's going to take a while.
it has been more than a month and it's almost the 49th day.
"How are you ah gong? Please watch over ah ma too although we promise to take care of her too. I miss you ah gong."
I'll stop 2017 #1 here because it's too overwhelming.. Meanwhile, take care!
