many told me to forgive and forget the incident. but i just cannot do so. although, he gave birth to me but i dunno how to forgive and forget it. back then when the incident happen, where was he when i needed somebody? where was he when mum was being 'bullied' in some sense? where was he when my granny needs someone to get something from the supermarket?
hearing all the stories on how my mum suffer back then, it hurts me. i cant forgive and forget watever they did but seeing mama in her old age, i will forgive but not forget. but never will i forgive him! without taking care of me for the 15 years, HE HAS NO RIGHT TO SLAP ME! IHATEHIMFORWHOHEIS!
no matter how i always go back to visit them, i dun have the home feeling. im onli close to aunt jenny, aunt julia and uncle christopher. last but not least aunt nicole.
aunt nicole, if you happen to pop by this blog.. here is some words for you. =D
no matter where you are, i am always your niece! because of you, i came back to the family else i would not know them either. i love you!
you can always date me out for shopping, lunch, tea or even dinner! i will be so willing to go with you. aunt nicole.. krystal will always be your niece forever! =D
why did i change my url? hmm.. for the fun of it i suppose. too bored with lost-jade already.. im no longer lost. i've found where im suppose to be. although im still quite lost here and there but yeah. im no longer the lost-jade! =D
this year chinese new year was quite a normal and sleepy one. went to ah chor [great-grandma] house. my mum side de to slack there. every year 1st day also go there de. hahha.. came back, slept @ granny's house. woke up to watch little nonya. hahaa.. then off to aunt julia's house. dun really feel belongs there though. haha.. felt quite weird having that cousin following me everywhere. i felt so bad that i actually got a godma and godpa BUT i actually cannot recognise them and didnt even acknowledge them whenever i sees them. im sorry but i really cannot remember who is my godpa and godma. =X
im going to zzz already.. tired.. anyways.. im THINKING to set to required user log in to read so dun mind can send me your e-mail which you use to log in. =D thanks dearsss... hahahha...
