my dear great grandma.
although i do not know you well but you are always in my remembrance. you will not be forgotten in my prayers daily. i guess you have left to be with God. loving you deep down my heart.
great granny passed away on 21st December'2008. time i forgot. =X
joined the rest of the family [not my mum side] @ the wake.
seeing the peaceful face of great granny, i didnt have that sad feeling @ the point of time.
when i came to know how she has passed away, i wonder if she has any wishes back then. but i sincerely hope that she's peaceful when she leaves. at least, she didnt had to undergo the suffering she had gone through after she reach her 90s. great granny is 96 when she left the world with God.
i believe many wonder why do i say God. cause she's a catholic. therefore, she have left to be with God.
is onli till today or rather yesterday where aunt julia requested me to join in the prayer session and thats when i felt the sadness of her departure. i didnt do my duty the great granddaughter. i have onli seem her once or rather twice? once was CNY this year and if there is a twice then it would be uncle christopher's wedding. my heart felt sour when i see the senior cry.
when my mama requested me to come back to help out in the wake, i told her i had something on and seeing her sad face i felt sour too. when gonggong asked if im attending the funeral ceremony, i told them i couldnt wake up on time and i have a meeting @ night, i felt guilty. not being able to take care of great granny when she's alive and now even her last journey im not able to attend, wat kind of great granddaughter am i?
i wish to attend but i have my reasons for not being able to attend. can someone tell me wat should i do?
i hate attending wake is because i will always have the flash in my mind that one day if my granny or grandpa [mum's side] were to pass away, wat will i be like? i dun wan them to leave me so early! they will always be in my prayer.
Lim Gu Ni
my grand-uncle?
he has also depart the world to be with the Buddha or being a Buddha? i felt sad to hear about his departure back then. he is way in malaysia. my granny is not able to send him on his last journey as the wake is not very long and granny couldnt make her way to penang as nobody is able to go with her. this granduncle of mine, he is real funny. we called him black dog gong! [must translate to chinese or hokkien] hahahah.. i really miss the time when im in malaysia with him..
grand-uncle, you will always be in my prayers too.. love you! =D
lastly, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYBODY! =D
im not suppose to celebrate any festive for 49 days. i dunno if i should or not. haix.. =(
