nothing seems interesting to me now. haha.. im both physically and mentally tired. how man? im not in the mood to do anything now.. im TIRED! can i like fall super ill that i requires to stay in hospital. i know thats silly but i believe thats the onli way now for me to not think anything. i dunno wats happening to me either. but since the day im back at home, i think everything is back to the yuan dian.. haha..

im really super tired to go for anything. just take today or rather yesterday as a good example. i went for the prayer meeting for 3.16, my body is there, my mind and soul is not there to listen totally.. the cause to my this feeling of being down and everything is HER!

AHH!!!!!!!!AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHH!!!!!!!!!!!!