being a nice person isn't as easy as i think. but i know after all is the communication breakdown la. but well, i cant blame anybody for that neither can i be angry wuth anybody. haix.

for the past few days, im feeling damn shity. haix. i dunno wat should i do then is said to be the right thing. no matter i do, im just simply in the wrong lar.. freak. im like so pissed off. haix.

im just simply a disappointment to everybody la. despite the fact that i've been through flint training, im not up to it. haix. i just wish to be alone right now. haix. but how to be alone? when the fact that whenever i off my phone, if my mummys and daddys were to call and can't get through, they will be worried. and the thing is i dun wan to bother them. i know thats they appear in my life for a reason and is to help me and listen to me. but i've been going through 16-17 yrs of been alone without anyone for me to bother. i do hope someone is here to listen to me but the things is i dun feel good to bother them. freak.

i seriously dunno wats going on la! f up la..